Doom and Gloom

May 21, 2009 3 comments

The diet is going absolutely pants at the moment. I’ve been trying so hard and the weight just hasn’t been shifting. The last couple of weeks have been the worst, and tbh I’ve not really stuck to the plan. The start of the week goes ok, I get to Friday or saturday and it goes out the window. I’m sick and tired of dieting. Of watching everything I eat. Of constantly thinking about food… planning what meals to have, cooking, shopping and the things I’m ‘not allowed’ to eat.

I’m not happy with my body yet, I still need to lose more weight, but my brain has wandered off down a different track. My will power and resolution have vanished. I have to get it all back into gear… but how? Beating myself up isn’t the way to do it, but that’s what I’m mentally doing and I have to stop it.

All that said, I kicked my butt back into gear yesterday and did a 100% day, and the same will happen today. I have to get this weight loss moving again. I just don’t know how. My body seems to have gone on strike. I’ve exercise cycled, and we even skint ourselves buying the Wii balance board and Wii Fit to use on my son’s Wii console. It’s good fun actually, I quite enjoy doing it, especially for someone who hates exercise! The body test isn’t so impressive as it keeps telling me my weight is going up, although this week I’ve had the worst ToTM for a long time. Sorry to gross anyone out, but its been heavy, and I mean.. h. e. a. v. y!! for 6 days! yikes. I guess it’s my age.

So, it’s back on track and lets shift some fat! I’ve decided on a personal achievement target which is 2 stone heavier than my actual intended target. I’m going to try to get to this PAT and see how I feel. My PAT is another 4 stone away, but I feel that’s achievable once my body gets out of ‘strike’ mode and starts letting go of the fat it loves so much.

And this morning I am drinking Twinings Morning Detox tea. hmmm. I HATE tea LOL. It’s disgusting. Green Tea is even worse! But this is .. according to the box.. a purifying blend with lemon, limeflowers, milk thistle and lemon verbena. Oh yes, what a concoction. and what is it supposed to do for me?  According to the box once again… Lemon tea has long been used in hot water as a refreshing and cleansing drink to start the day, thought to help cleanse the system. Milk thistle is believed to have antioxidant properties. It doesn’t mention what the limeflowers are supposed to do.. but there you go. It doesn’t actually taste too bad. It might be be better as an iced tea, but I still can’t get past the word ‘tea’. I hate tea LOL. It tastes a bit flowery (aha.. that will be the limeflowers!) but it’s drinkable. I wonder if I’ll feel any benefit from it? Although right now, it’s not mixing too well with the banana mullerlight yogurt I just ate. I think it’s all curdling in my stomach. ewwww!


Changing Faces

April 23, 2009 3 comments

I was having a bit of a wonder today about how much my physical appearance has changed. I ofen struggle to see any change. My brain thinks I’m still the same size that I was 4 stone ago so that’s how my eyes see me in the mirror.

I have had monthly photographs taken by my lovely son to keep a visual record. He wasn’t around this morning so I took a head and shoulders shot of myself (not easy to do!) YES there is definately a difference. Even I can see it LOL.

So, here’s the facial difference from October until now.

October 08

December 08

February 09

April 09 – 59lbs lighter (I think most of that has gone from my face LOL)

I have to say, even I’m shocked at the difference!!

My Story ~ Part IV

April 22, 2009 Leave a comment

Just posted part IV of  ‘My Story’


if you want to take a read.

Weigh in and Cycling

April 22, 2009 1 comment

I didn’t get to weigh in last week, but I weighed at home and had put 4lbs on. Time of the month didn’t help as I always gain then, but even so, my scales said 4lbs heavier.. eek!!

Getting back on track was really difficult after the two weeks of emotional up’s and down’s. Wednesday went to pot, but I gave myself a good talking to, reminded myself that I still have a long way to go to be messing about like that! I know I’ve come a long way and I look much better, but that’s really beside the point. I still have 6 stone to lose! One more stone and I’m half way. That did it.. I’m almost half way!! C’mon.. !!

So I weighed in yesterday. I have lost the 4lbs I gained, although that doesn’t officially count as it’s not on my record card, but I lost another 1lb on top of that. Technically I lost 5, officially I lost 1 but I’m good with that. I’ve now lost 59lbs. Next week will be my ‘stats and picture’ post. I’ll take my measurements again. I’ve been going to the gym and going on my exercise bike. I also took Isabelle swimming several times during the school holiday and I managed to get 10 lengths of the pool done the day Mark came too. So hopefully there will be some inchloss too.

I’ve decided that I am going to virtually cycle (on my exercise bike) from John O’ Groats to Lands End. A distance of 838.7 miles (according to the AA Route Planner).

I started this morning and managed to get 5 miles away from John O’ Groats, accompanied by Bon Jovi. Well, not officially accompanied by them, they were on the media player LOL.  So here is my visual record of how far I’ve cycled and how far I have to go.

Confession Time

April 17, 2009 2 comments

Forgive me dieters, for I have sinned!

Since the Wednesday night before last when Isabelle smashed her mouth up and lost her front teeth (see my non-diet blog) and then my Mother in Law coming to visit mid (her) personal crisis, the diet went out of the window! It wasn’t intentional, it just sort of happened and my brain shut down. I was also due on, so that didn’t make life any easier.

For some reason my brain just went into ‘ignore anything going into your mouth’ mode. It completely shut down all reasoning and the ability to say NO to myself. I made things much worse by baking. I don’t do this often, but I just seemed to be in a baking mood. It was also a case of trying to distract Isabelle from her sore mouth. Problem was I made the things I like. Once they’d gone, I started eating the things that I’m not that fond of. They were just there, so I ate them. Normally my resolve is much stronger than that.. but as I said, it had gone AWOL.

It’s worse than that too. I didn’t go to class weigh in on the Tuesday. My MIL was going home and I had to get her to the airport, so I skipped class. Wrong thing to do! My brain didn’t get it’s weekly dose of positivity and it was still shut down on Wednesday. On Wednesday night I went to the shop and bought biscuits.. Fox’s crunch cream biscuits to be honest. I ate all but three of them in the worst case scenario… at the computer, not even paying attention to what I was eating, so I didn’t even enjoy them.

My hubby ended up upsetting me, He didn’t mean to upset me (as I sat there in floods of tears) but he was ‘looking out for me’ as he put it. He asked if I really needed to eat a full of biscuits. My defense was… I HAVEN’T eaten the full packet, there’s some left!! But he didn’t stop there. He went on and on about these biscuits I’d eaten. I ended up yelling… I WANTED THEM, I NEEDED THEM, SO I ATE THEM! I also said, for the first time in 6 months I’ve gone off plan. I’ve lost 4 stone and the first time I slip, you are jumping my case about it!!  He said there was no need to yell, he was looking out for me, and he walked off. It was my guilty conscience that was making me so angry at him and lose all rationality of temper. I was defending myself for being a pig. It it had just been the packet of biscuits it wouldn’t have been so bad, but it had been cakes, biscuits and all kinds of other things all week. I think that’s why I got so cross. I wasn’t angry with him, I was angry with myself.

So, I got back on track on Thursday. A little belated, but I’m  now back on track.

It might sound a bit silly, but I think I really needed that week of eating crap. As I said before, I’ve been on the plan for 6 months and have followed it faithfully. A week of pigging out has sorted me out, made me feel quite ill to be honest, so I’m ready to knuckle down and get back to it and get the rest of the weight off. I want to be in a size 14 for Christmas and for Mark’s 40th birthday. Much better than a size 28 that I was in last Christmas!

So, onwards and downwards… positive head is back on and dusted down. Hopefully when I get to class this week I’ll have lost a little bit according to my record card. That will mean that I will at leas have lost the 4 pounds I put on pigging out.

Weight loss – Visually

April 2, 2009 1 comment

As it was the first of the month yesterday, my son dutifully took my monthly visual record… my dreaded photograph. So here you go.

Me, August 08 at my biggest


and me yesterday, 4 stone (56lbs) lighter


Bit of a difference eh? When will my boobs start to go? I feel so top heavy LOL. I’ve always been well endowed, but c’mon!

Joined the Gym

April 1, 2009 1 comment

Imagine that… I joined the gym. A phrase I never thought I’d hear myself say, let alone be pleased about. It’s actually a gym / toning studio. I went for my induction today. I managed 6 minutes on the exercise bike. I could actually have done more but as it was my induction, I didn’t ask for longer. I’ll just do longer next time. They also have a treadmill, a ski machine type thing (my gym terminology is great eh?), a stepper and a rowing machine. They also have one of those vibrating plate things that scared the hell out of me! Might just avoid that one.. yikes!

So after my exercise bike, I went onto the toning tables. A lot of people say toning tables are a lazy way of doing exercise. What they need to realise is that it’s not exercise to lose weight, it’s toning all your muscles up. You work against the tables by tensing your muscles and applying pressure against the machine. I certainly know all about it this afternoon. My thighs and bum in particular. But I’m on my way to pertness LOL. I’m hoping to go twice a week and will work on increasing my time on the exercise bike until I’m doing half an hour. Once I can do that, I’ll add in the treadmill and then slowly introduce the other machines as well as carrying on with the toning tables.

One reason I have to be careful is because of my fibromyalgia. Because of that, muscle pain is amplified and I can be in agony sometimes from doing very little, so hopefully I can find a level that I can work comfortably at.

I’m looking forward to firming up and losing inches.

So, measurements today are:

  • Neck: 14 3/4″
  • Bust: 48″
  • Under Bust: 41″
  • Waist: 44″
  • Hips: 52″
  • Thighs: 25 3/4″
  • Above Knee: 20 1/2″
  • Calf: 17 1/2″
  • Upper Arm: 13 1/4″

Checking these against my measurements on the 1st of February when I first took my measurements, the inch loss is as follows:

Inch Loss

  • Neck: -1 1/4″
  • Bust: -2″
  • Waist: -3″
  • Hips: -2″
  • Thigh: 1 1/2″
  • Upper Arm: 1 1/4